Author:
Maarten van der Meer
Book:
Evolution of analysis
Type:
Case
Chapter:
3-665.16.08
Cornus alternifolia
Remedy code: 3-665.16.13
Man of 45 years, burnout, is at home for a year. Soft voice, soft, appearance strong. The circuit of help and coaching I've had, I already never believed that: how can anyone see into my head?
Had psychopharmacology, they flatten you. Now reintegration, when at office, I feel the stress, the pressure, as if I am a sponge.
Quiet, careful, talks clearly but softly, comes across as friendly and gentle, clearly not intending to deal with anything but very clearly present. Clear gaze.
I got into a spike of stress and felt negative, can not take it anymore.
It's waves, an echo in my head, something about stress I can't let it go of. It exhausts me. For example, when arguing at home, I feel of no importance, clam up. Say nothing. Inside it feels burning, panicky feeling. It feels as a wave of water goes through the whole body, for example, if I break something. I hear everything extremely sharply, for example a fountain, and then I am flooded with feelings. It intertwines: anger, sadness, panic, and lasts until I solve it.
He works as designer. We had a layoff wave. The department fell away, the room where I worked with windows went away (I need windows), and I cannot solve it, so it is permanent.
I can experience a beautiful time with the children, but then I don't do anything, it all seeps above. With exercise and running, it ebbs away.
Seems like you run in a kind of circle. The phone rings: immediately startled, someone drops something: startled. I have that before in a mild form, a feeling in the stomach.
Work: graphic designer, came to it by chance: photos, computer. I did have a graphic design education. I am an introvert, always drawing and sketching. But now it's a pile of paper, codes and so on.
I feel like a burden at home, running through everything. I want to fix it, but I can’t.
Forget everything.
When things change, I have a difficult period dealing with it, like a hand going through a fish tank, and it all has to sink in after that.
I find myself giving up quickly. Physical feeling, like I've lost it, and it feels different, libido at a low ebb. Troubles from high squeaks. I am to sensitive, that is fed (by this collapse).
Had oxazepam: lay flat, wonderful, but all feeling was gone. Cytalopram.
I always react violently to medication. I have muscular pains, of the back and neck. I had surgery three time, feeling I became a different person after anesthesia. Operations: fistula, two times, and eye surgery: The eye was out of alignment. Since the operations I become sensitive, and very emotional.
Neck stiff, radiate to the forehead. The right shoulder is very sore. Sleep well now, lying awake at first. No dreams.
In the past he dreamed a lot, screaming, so his wife woke him up. It was about panic and demons. TV is also too much, and I can't watch a horror movie.
Photography can make me happy, odd jobs I like very much, making things up, hands must be busy, making a couch, design still sometimes.
Allergies to dogs, even dangerous for me, also pollen and house dust. It gives dry eyes, is intensely irritable, and stuffy. I love animals very much. After a sting of a bee I became unconscious, and then allergy tests were done.
Regular feeling that everything comes in delayed, a fraction later than reality. Bowel in the past: frequent abdominal pain, diagnosis of spastic bowel, stool is good. The fistula at the time gave me pain, but I didn't go to the doctor for that.
Mood can change, and turn into a happy mood. They can't figure me out. It something happens there is that wave.
If I want something, I achieve it, but the desire to want is lacking. I am warmblooded, and cold feet, and cold genitals.
Analysis
Gold series: Self reflection, strong reactions to medicines, allergies, think for his own (a Lanthanides aspect), Silver series: Artist, graphics and he is photographer, problems in neck and shoulders.
So Gold series5, the Lamiidae.
Phase 1: overexcited, exhaustion, not feeling at home in a new environment, outsider, came to his study ‘by change’. So Cornales
SubPhase 6: too much, collapse, nor appreciated at his work, so Cornaceae
Prescription Cornus alternifolia, because it fits the description of the Materia Medica of Clarke, confirmation
for stage 13 because he had to ‘withdraw’ his beautiful job, beyond his irritability, he can’t fight for it anymore.
Materia Medica Clarke: no ambition, awful uneasy feeling that something is going to happen, he names this as something familiar, the 'diving board feeling', the tension in your gut you have with something new, going somewhere). Symptoms of fever, restlessness, and sleeplessness, ameliorating after walking in open air. Disturbed sleep. Coldness in the chest as a piece of ice.
Follow up
After a few days it was as if the clouds opened, as if suddenly the sun was shining. I could enjoy myself again, and I was happy. There was no depression anymore. The whole family was happy too.
After six weeks with the flue: my skin hurts, flabby thighs, and tightness in my chest, the fear is back: a ball in the stomach or a wave from the chest that floods me. Bam, I do startle then. After running, it subsides. It feels different, everything. Dizzy but not as bad.
Meanwhile, the company doctor has a new diagnosis, I would be autistic, but I do not agree with that at all. I sleep well, but the last week I waked up at five, feeling tense.
Tinnitis in my ear that I couldn't get rid of; I've been so worried about that; I'll have that squeak all my life, I want to be able to affect it.
Work built up more, still pressure and stress. Beep in ears had more often, with waves, but now a few days. Slightly less cold, everything, libido better.
Waves, I've had that before; I used to be happy for a few weeks, but it ran on something like manic, built up, and then collapsed (stage 1, Phase 1).
Neck-shoulder symptoms not bothered. From wind restless, but everyone has that, right?
At my work there is still a very unpleasant atmosphere, I feel atmosphere from people, very often. The liver function also fluctuates, the doctor checked when I was on psychopharmaceutics.
Tongue clean, left side dark (spleen area).
The years after the prescription he is well.
Remark: Cornus 'alternifolia', seems to fit his 'waves'.